sleeping imagery..

[machinery]

My eyes are widened to you and that comfortable blue shirt. How your hair is a new auburn and your fingertips match your cheeks. You are far more sick than I, (small coughs and constant sniffles); don't waste your morning on that. Breathe free and let me see that smile I used to swim in daily...
Fingers look frail with those silver rings on them. dry. patchy. white. Are you okay? I beg to be under those hands -- your touch is that which I dream of...I will never lose you in my mind..(though I might have drifted from yours)
In those dreams, I wade in your skin --remembering how it was and how I weep inside your arms. You are always sleeping in these sleep visions, these wonderful-terrible dreams...I approach those shoulders (ones I've felt close so many times) and crawl up your neck. I lay kisses on your eyelid, but no flicker in response --- I'm always so small - in comparsion - size - feelings- to you. Huge beauty I lay against in my dreams with eyelashes resembling slides...Won't you wake and see me..ever?

[lost to be found]

you have a real nack at capturing the moment, you say it so well, without details and on going sayings. You put a picture in the mind that relates to the reader. You are very good at your work, dont get frustrated with love, it will come back soon!

[parch]

these are questions of strength..it takes something to ask that.. "won't you wake and see me...ever?".. that's not easy. i don't offer advice. i just say that this is important to ask. my breath gives way reading. i don't seem to know anything. you haunt me in words, thoughts. and i want to grasp this screen,and send my visions throught the wire cause i fear so much. i trouble from your poetry.

this isn't about me. i'm sorry. but i post what i think. this poem is provocative fear to me. that is so much and so much more than it seems.

___---parch

[machinery]

This love won't come back...not this one..

What do you mean parch when you say you trouble from it? A fear? What? Talk to me... These writings are all first runs....should I do anything to them? Actually, I didn't like the ending on this one....I just didn't want to end it on the eyelashes resembling slides.......

[parch]

just personal fears i get that relate sometimes...that's all
should you revise?...you asked-- well, i think you actually revise well sometimes so if you want to - then do it.. some people can't revise. you can. sometimes you revise and the first one's better. then you and everyone else sees that and you throw out the revision. revise if you want....

___---parch